Jun 262015
 
essential differences

On Thu, Jun 25, 2015 at 7:49 PM, MyBoy wrote: Ma’am, I’m fooling around with video editing and working to become proficient making animated GIFs by lifting frames from movies. If you have any ideas for something you’d like to use on your blog, I’d be happy to try and make one for you. You are likely very proficient at this kind of thing already, and my early attempts are bound to be crude. So, any requests you make would be doing me a favor as I need the practice. On Thu, Jun 25, 2015 at at 9:06 PM, D … [read more]

Jun 222015
 
recurring dream (variations on a theme)

J and I are trying to untangle an amorphous snarl of hurt feelings, miscommunications, and mismatched expectations related to the relationship (past, present, and future). Yeah… we’re still something. That something? I’m not sure what to call it. It’s a relationship where we’re broken up without a break up, in a situation where  we’re physically separate, but not emotionally separated. We’re not together, but not apart. We’re both single, but not looking* because we’re still in love (but doomed). What do you call that? A mess? Sure. But it’s the mess we find ourselves in. It’s one we’ve been in, … [read more]

May 212015
 

we move in oblong orbits our distance inconsistent over time increasing space reduces gravity “Animation of the moon phases / Lunar libration with Phase 2” by Tomruen, (2005). Image released into the public domain. oblong orbits was last modified: May 21st, 2015 by Dumb Domme

Feb 122015
 
writing the self; constructing reality

I’ve been trying to figure out why I’ve been getting progressively more precious about my writing here. Every word feels so consequential that I struggle to get things down — the way they were, the way they are, and the way I want them to be. Lately, more often than not, I don’t hit ‘publish.’ I’m not ready, not (entirely) for emotional reasons, but for intellectual ones. I don’t understand things, I don’t like the way they’re still bouncing around in my head, and I’m not ready to commit them to the permanent record because they’re fragmentary, unfinished, and disorganized. … [read more]

Jan 242015
 
beginning to wonder (so much left unsaid)

A long (long) time reader wrote me a kind note about a month ago. Hi D, I was beginning to wonder how your life was going following J’s departure. With the extended time between your post about Jian Gomeshi and your most recent posts, I was beginning to think you were either completing a very big project at work or holed up in a seedy motel room with several empty bottles of vodka to your credit. But with today’s post [contemplating the divine] my answer came – introspection. Big work project? Yes (always). Seedy motel room? No (never). If I’m … [read more]