Jul 142015
drunk email

I’m either fucking awesome or total shit at drunk emailing. One of those. It is safe to say I’m terrible at drunk dialing since I sent a drunk email to test the waters first. Who does that? I can’t even fuck up like a normal person. Anyway, (clearly) things aren’t going well between the boy and I. <sarcasm> Quelle surprise </sarcasm> — there are only about a million miles between us (literally and metaphorically…). drunk email was last modified: July 14th, 2015 by Dumb Domme

Jun 262015
essential differences

On Thu, Jun 25, 2015 at 7:49 PM, MyBoy wrote: Ma’am, I’m fooling around with video editing and working to become proficient making animated GIFs by lifting frames from movies. If you have any ideas for something you’d like to use on your blog, I’d be happy to try and make one for you. You are likely very proficient at this kind of thing already, and my early attempts are bound to be crude. So, any requests you make would be doing me a favor as I need the practice. On Thu, Jun 25, 2015 at at 9:06 PM, D … [read more]

Nov 162014

Throughout our relationship, I was diligent about never asking J for things he wouldn’t do, or couldn’t do. I never asked him to put me above his work, his dreams, or his plans — not even in small ways. I never called on him in such a way that he was forced to choose between what he should do, what he needed to do, and what I wanted him to do. It’s not that I never needed him — I did — I just never asked. In part, it’s because I never wanted to put him in that position, and … [read more]

Feb 012014

Three years ago in February, we happened. Next February, you’ll be gone. On the occasion of our fourth and final February together, all I can do is thank you. I can’t give you my love because you already have it. I can’t give you my heart because you’ve had it all along. It’s yours, and I expect you’ll take it with you when you leave. I know that day is coming — soon — and I promise to love you as hard as I can in the time we have left. I love you more than you will ever know. … [read more]

Oct 072013
new house rules

Because of the nature of our relationship — the distance and the eventual expiration date — I never gave J any rules to follow when he’s here. Setting up routines and structure for something infrequent, unpredictable, and temporary felt unnecessarily formal and melodramatic. But now that it looks like he might spend a bit more time here, I’m giving him more of a presence in my home and a new set of rules and routines to follow when he’s here. House Rules and Routines Arrival When you arrive at my place, immediately after greeting me, you will put all of your personal belongings away … [read more]