I discovered he visited a friend when he could have spent time with me.
I reminded him what he agreed to long ago — all of his free time belongs to me. If he has the time to travel to see a friend, he has time to travel and see me.
At first, he tried to explain that his friend is just like family, but then backtracked and apologized. He suggested maybe he subconsciously neglected to mention his availability, forgot to offer his time to me first, didn’t want to ask if he could spend time with a friend… because he thought I might say “no.”
I laughed, thinking he was kidding.
“Do you honestly think I would have said ‘no’?”
I didn’t expect his response — he said he wasn’t sure.
I was stunned, but I know myself well enough to know that if pay too close attention to any little thing, it gets bigger and I run the risk of ruining what would have been a pleasant evening. So, I let it go.
But sometimes I wonder… doesn’t he know me by now?