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"Yin Yang Koi," courtesy of Jennie Gyllblad (JenJens-Journey, via DeviantArt)

“Yin Yang Koi,” courtesy of Jennie Gyllblad
(JenJens-Journey, via DeviantArt)

Part of what I find compelling about BDSM is the exercise of contrasts inscribed within its practice — dominance and submission, freedom and constraint, strength and weakness, love and violence, pleasure and pain, giving and taking, self and other.

I’m drawn to J for roughly the same reasons — he is the physical, intellectual, and emotional embodiment of so many seemingly disparate characteristics.

I find warmth and depth in eyes I once found cold and unyielding.

I see him navigate the world with his cool, collected visage, knowing the alchemy of he and I together leaves him disassembled, inarticulate, and exposed.

I watch as he transforms from the man who needs nothing and wants no one into the boy who needs my collar, the boy who is desperate for my touch.

I enjoy his agile mind, his quick wit and silver tongue. I enjoy his hard body, smooth skin, and ice-blue eyes. I enjoy his pride, his passions, and his ego.

But even more, I enjoy him when he gives it all to me.

I enjoy him most when he is not his own, and I love him when he’s mine.

 

  7 Responses to “exercise of contrasts”

  1. Wow. You are making at least one of your readers inarticulate too. :p

  2. What a beautiful sentiment. The big transformation for me between everyday life and submitting is the shift between being so analytical normally and just being in the moment when I’m submitting. There’s lots of other stuff involved, too, but that is the biggest one.

    • the shift between being so analytical normally and just being in the moment when I’m submitting.

      Yes! This. It’s lovely and amazing to see someone be truly present, even if it’s only for a moment. It sounds cliched (and it is), but seeing the rest of the world fall away and there’s nothing besides him, and me, and us together… that’s fucking magic. :)

  3. A wonderful sentiment, and beautifully put!… Thank you for that.

  4. Is there no greater magic in this world?
    Are you not a wonderous Enchantress, and he your greatest spell?
    And won’t you cast that spell again and again, until you are the slave of the magic itself?

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