For the time being, there won’t be any topping from the bottom, at least not from me.
In considering everyone’s thoughtful comments and about my responses to them, it’s pretty clear that it’s not something I am/we are ready for.
And because I want to have a sort of last word here, really, it has nothing to with me wanting to bottom. I have no desire to experience bottoming for it’s own sake. I have no desire to experience sensory deprivation, bondage, or anything else associated with bottoming. Honestly, I just want to come…. hard and often, and I thought some very qualified bottoming might be an option. It isn’t.
But hey… I came once and I will come again! Up with orgasms and all that.
As for everyone’s comments yesterday, thank you. I felt bad for responding to some of the comments with more questions and lots of “yes, but” statements. I can’t help it. I don’t expect that everyone responding is familiar with the whole backstory, so I often feel the need to supply details about the context and clarify my position and what I believe is my partner’s position. It’s one of the ways I’m most self-centered–I absolutely want to be understood and apparently, I cannot STFU until I feel that’s been achieved.